As a young woman, having been blessed with one girl and one boy child, I did as many women in our country were doing during that time; I chose an *IUD (intrauterine device) of convenience, to be sure my husband and I were not burdened with an unexpected pregnancy. It was among the first of it's kind and actually more dangerous than advertised. After a few years this device caused complications and I most certainly would not be having any unexpected children. I would not be having any more children at all. My choice resulted in an unexpected surgery and removal of all my reproductive parts. I do so praise God for the blessings which have come to my husband and I, from the births of our precious babies prior to this unfortunate event.
Sometimes I do think about the babies God possibly would have given me, however, I also am reminded from His Word that my omnipenant God always knew the choices I would make and He loved me and has blessed me in spite of them. Whether we make choices which go against His perfect will from a carefully laid deception by Satan, ignorance of God's will, or out of clear rebellion knowing deep within we are wrong, He is always waiting, extending His hand in unconditional love toward us. We have just to grab on and choose "life" not "death" in all our circumstances and choices. He really has set us "free."
1John 1:9 If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.
I am going to hit on a touchy subject here and if you happen to disagree you may want to take to heart the verses below as these were the verses which spoke to me so clearly. This was my 180 degree turn and although quite late in life and after many mistakes were made, I am so very happy to have made it.
I own my part in the shedding of innocent blood. Below is a piece I wrote just after this revelation had come to me. It depicts what occurred in my heart and mind the moment I realized God's perfect will is much different than His permissive one. The consequences of our choices, not including His will and His wisdom, are sometimes very grim. Jesus is the way we can have a perfect peace no matter what our choices have wrought. He is the true "life giver." I pray you have this wonderful assurance of life everlasting. I pray you have already chosen "life!"
Psalm 139:12-16 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me," even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you. For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
Were these words from God spoken directly to me? OH! PLEASE! NO! Filthy rags cover my body, dripping with the blood of a child, once considered to be a matter of inconvenience, a tissue to be removed; My part in the shedding of innocent blood plunging me into a pit of sorrow and remorse.
WAIT! Blood, now pouring over me. The blood of the Innocent Lamb of Calvary, casting me from the pit of sorrow into Jubilee! "IN FAITH, HE..." revealed just how precious the flow of His blood really is. Jesus is MY personal Savior. I have only to ask and receive forgiveness. This IS the PEACE that passes understanding. His forgiveness is extending to me in an overflow of unmerrited grace!
John 14:27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
Thank You, Jesus!
Keep me always alert to the schemes of the evil one. I want my eyes to be open and my ears to hear. Your way is the only way. Thank You for showing me and thank You Lord for Your forgiveness and unconditional love. Amen*Dictionary.... IUD abbreviation...interauterine death (of the fetus before birth) nouna contraceptive device fitted inside the uterus and physically preventing the implantation of fertilized ova.
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